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I have a question. I have some newer photos and was wondering who would be interesting in me releasing them on DA? What do you think?
Well. Not sure what to say. My life has completely changed since joining DeviantArt over 5 years ago. This website was my safe place to share my inner inspiration and turn it into some kind of beauty. The last year has been a incredibly huge learning experience for me. I moved to Toronto in Oct. 2014. I stayed in Toronto for over 9 months with great success. I got published in a couple magazines, got great friendships with agencies and just really went in the direction I wanted. Problem was, it was so much stress to live on your own, produce income from freelance work and also just being alone in a city where I know nobody. I eventually decided to come back to Alberta and get my head in the right place. Unfortunately since being home I was diagnosed with Nocturnal Epilepsy and have been in and out of doctors' offices since. It's been a truly awful thing where I'm no longer able to drive for a certain amount of months. It really put in a depression of sorts. Feelings of failure and loss over things that were uncontrollable. So what I'm trying to say is, now I am almost 3 months free of a seizure, I've been painting and drawing quite a bit and truly just learning more about myself. Now I just have to find my next move. Trying to stay positive!

Hope all of you are doing alright in your lives! Would love to hear from some familiar names!
It's kind of weird to think I'm turning 18 now. I know I'm not near as active as I used to be but I want all of you to know that I'm still planning on pursuing photography as a career. I'm going to be moving to Toronto at the end of the summer. It's odd I used to be able to just tell every little detail of my life online since I was about thirteen. It's not that I've grown out of it, I just worry more now. Deviantart is a huge aspect of my life. It's what really got me started in photography which ultimately shaped who I am today. I promise that I will always try to keep some sort of update. Right now I'm just really focusing on making the career aspect of photography a reality for me. There will be a time in the near future where I can bring my art out in it again :) I was 13 years old when I posted my first photo on here. Crazy!

Stressed out

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 30, 2013, 2:18 PM
I just need to write my thoughts down somewhere. I am so grateful for the opportunities I have gotten but it's also a huge amount of anxiety and stress. I know I have a tendency to make things worse when they involve myself. Having your art criticized is really hard for me. I'm glad people are open to telling me what to change. But it leaves me with this feeling of discouragement. I know it's part of being an artist. I don't take anything I have for granted. But think of it this way. I just did a shoot for an agency in Toronto and they didn't like any of the photos pretty much. Including editing, that shoot probably took 25 hours to get everything done. And I definitely don't blame the agency. I have a habit of looking at a photo like it's art. I have to remember that everyone is looking for something different. And right now, in my career, I have to work my way up. They want their models to look natural, glowing and raw. I tend to go overboard and make the overall photograph perfect but then it doesn't look 100% like the model. It's hard to find a balance. And okay, I'm not saying every photographer is like this but alot started for a love of fashion for example. Where as I just love beauty in people. So I always focus on that. Most of this won't make sense, just a little rant haha

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New photo!

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 1, 2013, 10:56 AM
dallasharder.deviantart.com/#/…

enjoy!~ :) Off to Toronto in 3 days. Let me know if you want me to write journal entries on each day!

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IM ALIVE

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 29, 2013, 2:33 PM
Ah I feel so bad, I haven't posted anything in AGES. I don't know if anyone even really pays attention to this account anymore. But I did a NEW self portrait and if this journal entry gets 100 comments I'll post it.  I just want to see if it's worth keeping up, because if it is then I will continue to do so. I've just been so so busy. I'm going to Toronto in 4 days for more exciting photography ventures!

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July.29/13

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 29, 2013, 4:52 PM
I'm slowly updating my website at the moment, I took off all my old photography since it will now solely be used for my career. (I'll always keep it up on here) It's so crazy to think I'm planning on moving in a year. My recent trip really put things into perspective of how fast everything is happening. I mean I got offered to work with NY models while I was there. That's insane. I think what I'm gonna do is move to Toronto, build my published portfolio and eventually apply for a working visa in NYC. Just a quick update! I've been working like crazy lately too, need to start saving!

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New York/Toronto

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 13, 2013, 3:09 PM
Just an amazing enlightening trip for me. I can't even begin to explain how wonderful it was. I'll mention some high points of the trip. First of all I flew to Toronto to spend the day with Alex Evans and watch him shoot. It was a complete honor and he's a really cool guy and I learned alot. Then I went to NYC with the modeling agency I work with and I went to castings with all of them. It was really cool to watch the process. I basically fell in love with New York. Which I honestly wasn't expecting. But I think it's a very high possibility I'll be living there one day. It just seemed to suit me so well. Okay now I have a question, I have quite a bit of photos of models, should I upload some on deviantart or keep them just on my website? I ask mostly because alot of you are only interested in my self portraits. But anyways life is going good :)

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June 23/13

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 23, 2013, 1:41 PM
"I am here to accept all that is new and old. I think most of us get lost in the fads and forget our influential pasts."

I wrote that with complete clarity. You know when something just makes absolute sense? I'd be interested to hear your opinions on the matter. I've been reading into the Beat Generation and learning about the poem Howl by Allen Ginsberg. And it's truly incredible what happened during that time period. Anyways I also strongly suggest watching the movie Howl if you want some artistic enlightenment.


Okay something more personal. I got a part time job selling high end shoes. My VW beetle broke down :( Hoping it won't cost alot to fix. I leave for British Columbia next week, Then my Brother's wedding is the week after. In two weeks I'll be in Toronto and New York. I'm incredibly busy right now. I  do have two photoshoots planned after I get back as well. So yeah :) Busy but happy. Let me know what's going on in your life :)

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May.21/13

Journal Entry: Tue May 21, 2013, 2:20 PM
A couple updates. First, me in my natural habitat : dallasharder.tumblr.com/post/5…

Secondly I've been having problems with my back, I found out last week I had scoliosis, but got the results back today and it isn't too serious yet.

Also I'm going to be looking after my Aunt tomorrow, she's having a stomach surgery & will be staying with us for a couple days. Alot of people say I have a hard time showing emotions but for some reason I have a strong desire to help people after major things like surgery.

Anyway I think that's it. School needs to end though :(

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May.14/13

Journal Entry: Tue May 14, 2013, 7:07 PM
First of all, new photo posted : dallasharder.deviantart.com/ar…

Also, today has been quite wonderful. Had dinner with my family and all that, it was nice :)

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May.12/13

Journal Entry: Sun May 12, 2013, 11:30 AM
Well since I'm going to be more active(or try to be) online, I thought I would let you know what's going on in my life. First of all, last night I saw MGMT in concert and was literally life changing(for a couple reasons.. hah) Secondly, my birthday is in two days(when I'm posting a new self portrait) and I'm just really excited for everything. Also, I'm starting to work alot more with the modeling agency and will probably be traveling with them to Toronto/New York in July. For those of you who have followed my work & journal posts for a long time, you would know that I went through a hard time and that's when I was posting photos the most. Once things started to get better, I decided I needed some time to start connecting with people again since I became sort of a loner. I basically dedicated the past year to working on becoming my own person. And I can honestly say right now, I have never been happier in my life. I just felt like I've learned so much and that whatever happens, it's all going to work out. I hope all of you are doing well and I can't wait to hear from you guys again. :)

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NEW PHOTO...SOON?!

Journal Entry: Thu May 9, 2013, 3:51 PM
So I did a new self portrait (I know it's been forever, I'm sorry!) And I think I'm going to upload it on my birthday (May 14th) What do you guys think about that? I just renewed my premium membership on here as well so expect alot more posts! As well I will be updating my website, since I've taken quite a few pictures over the last year, but they're more simple since I'm working for a modeling agency. So I'll let you know when that goes up as well

PS. this summer is gonna be full of photoshoots so stick around!!

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Feb.4/13

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 4, 2013, 4:52 PM
I saw this photo and tumblr and it makes so much sense to me. Just look at it, take it in and let me know your thoughts about it: dallasharder.tumblr.com/post/4…

I'm not necessarily known for being an angel. And a lot of people easily judge me for it. To me it's so interesting that people will take their time to put you down on something. Everything I do only comes to harm of myself, no one else. I know what I'm doing and I'm happier than I have ever been yet there's still people who feel the need to express their disgust. And no one is perfect so really, humans in any situation shouldn't be judging so harshly. Just think about it.

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Jan.24/13

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 24, 2013, 4:14 PM
I have a really neat idea for a self portrait that will hopefully get done soon. As well I have a shoot I wanna do with Kendall. And I'm gonna continue taking photos for modelling agencies too. I actually might be going to Toronto in the coming months to watch some real photoshoots but we'll see how that goes.

This past little while I've felt alot more creative.
I'm excited.

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Jan.23/13

Journal Entry: Wed Jan 23, 2013, 3:22 PM
I don't know if alot of you are aware that I have an instagram. At the moment it's probably what I'm most active on. So if you're interested in seeing everyday pictures of mine go to  instagram.com/dallasharder/ or just go on the app and search dallasharder

What's new with me? Well I think I've found an art school I'd like to attend. It's in San Francisco and I would move there after graduation( in a year and a half). It would be extremely difficult and expensive to move that far away but I'm definitely doing it. I'm glad to have such supportive parents in this situation. Alot of the times I don't get along with parents, we're all very much alike. But I had a conversation with my mom that made me feel alot more at ease with my decisions in life. Well I don't have great grades, attendance, extracurricular so I'm not even sure an art school would want me. But my mom said she supports any choice I make as long as I'm happy. And that was really nice to hear. I'm gonna be a photographer no matter what. The school would just be more of an experience than anything else, it doesn't guarantee you are something like going to law school does. So I guess that's why I'm writing this. If you have a talent, pursue it. Anyone could be a doctor if they put their mind to it. But you have the talent to create something new.

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Jan.20/13

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 20, 2013, 12:39 PM
I've been gone for so long and I don't even know what to say. First off, I am happy. For a big portion of my life I was sad. But somehow I managed to be alot more positive and just be happy. Whenever I think about posting photos, I get this feeling in my throat. That I'll choke and then I can't breathe. Not too long ago I realized I have anxiety over posting photos. I mean I know all of you are very kind people but I would just automatically think "well what if they don't like it?" And the pressure of everything kind of just crumbled. I also have OCD. I never noticed how bad it was until I stopped taking my antidepressants(also for ocd) I felt alot happier off of them but sometimes it's hard to deal with OCD. People often use the term loosely and say they have it because they need their pencil to always be sharpened or something. Mines a little different. I completely obsess over something for months at a time then drop it completely like it never mattered. For a long time I obsessed over photography where that's all I did. Then I just stopped. Right now, my current obsession is making my room look nice. I'll just spend hours wiping base boards and dusting shelves. I'm at a point where I just need to find balance. That's what I'm gonna try and do. The photo I posted today may seem a little different than my others, but as a person I've changed quite a bit. If anyone actually bothers to read this then thank you very much, it's very nice to know people still care about my art and I hope to bring you more of it very soon.

new photo: fav.me/d5s4rfr

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Aug.6/12

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 6, 2012, 3:29 PM
Hey! It's been a while! Things have been going quite lovely lately. I've been enjoying my summer of doing completely nothing but eating, shopping and being with people I care about. It's just nice to not have any stress at all. And tomorrow I leave for Reno, Nevada to visit my grandfather, and then a couple days later we are heading to San Francisco, CA. So I'm really quite excited to get some great shots! Which I'll most likely to post to my website. But who knows, maybe this trip will inspire me again. Here's hoping! Anyway I thought I would update you guys and say I miss talking to you, it was nice to have someone listen :)

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July.2/2012

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 2, 2012, 10:28 PM
You know, I've just felt really different about myself. I don't really know how to explain it, I just seem different. I guess it could be my meds, a possible side effect is to be withdrawn from regular activities. Photography will always have a place in my heart but it's never something I can force. I need to love it. And right now I'm having time for myself. I guess I'm saying for now I'm on hiatus. But I'm NOT gone, I'm just waiting for inspiration. I hope you're all having a good summer, I'll keep you updated.

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June.10/12

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 10, 2012, 5:21 PM
Last week of school. Can I do it? I don't know. Tomorrow i'm going to the doctor's to hopefully get some sleeping meds. For those of you who don't know I have horrible insomnia, it takes hours for me to fall asleep and then I'll wake up 6-7 times a night and stay up for long periods of time. And that's why I hate sleeping. It would be nice for those nights that I get really frustrated and lay wide awake.

Anyway I've decided to not post the photos of Kendall on here, because no one seems to care anyways. If you are interested in checking them out you can find the in "more photography" on Dallasharder.net. So be sure to check that out!

I have no idea what I'm doing this summer which is kind of a bummer. I had plans to originally go to nevada, los angeles, & kelowna. But now my mom says we aren't going to la which is what I was most excited for. And honestly I don't know if I want to go to Kelowna considering I do it every year and it's 12 hours in the car. It just seems dreadful.

That's my life right now.

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